Monday, May 09, 2005
im crying blood... dry my bloodied face..the blood wont stop flowing
now ITS MY TURN to say, "ive been sick for one whole frickin' week"
i know its my fault on that side, but what about yours? are u angry, upset or disappointed with me? my actions, my words? i dont know... im not a person of depth or wisdom im just a stupid 16 year old, gedddit?
im young, CHILDISH, IMMATURE and FUCKING SPOILT. i need to grow up.
now i find it even worse, i feel damn conscious of my emotions and thoughts, and i feel indebted to you, so i 'gave' a lot more than usual today
even though i dont want to give. AT ALL. and it isnt you receiving.
i cant afford to lose my temper again....... thats just my worst side.. usually.. people see me as fun loving nice and blah blah blah ... they just dont know.. once i lose hope.. and control... i go over the edge
and no one, NO ONE can survive my tantrums still being an acquaintance. except jaymie. im currently working on it.. i... learnt the hard way
i just wanna hide in a corner in class and while my time away thinking about you, but people wont leave me alone, wont they
memories of you haunt me , im afraid to sleep
i close my eyes and those happy times play back
why wont u leave me alone, what am i supposed to do now?
5:17 PM
